Thursday, December 30, 2010

Evelyn and Ainsley.

They were born tonight.

Ainsley is at Children's Hospital holding her own. She is tiny but is stable.

Evelyn is here with us, for now. We lost her some time this evening. We are loving her now while we can. All this time, we had no worries about our Hog Baby.

This is unreal.

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~M~ said...

Oh no -no no. I am so sorry. I'm just sitting here crying for you. I'm so, so sorry.

Cindy said...

Oh I am so sorry. I cannot imagine. I will keep you and your sweet family in my prayers. Again, I'm so sorry.

Brittany said...

I am at a total loss for words. Sending many, many hugs and prayers your way.

Christa said...

I am so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts.

Lena said...

I am so sorry, who knows what to say. Praying for your girls and family.

The Lungos said...

Praying for you & your family. I am so so sorry.

Tammy said...

Oh Jen, I am just so heartbroken for you. Hoping and praying that Ainsley continues to do well and gets to come home quickly. Sending you tons of hugs and prayers as you hold your sweet baby Evelyn. This is just so unfair and cruel. I cant even imagine. I'm just so sorry.

Sandy said...

Oh, Jen. I have no words to express how sorry I am. This never should have happened to you of all people. Keeping you in my heart and thoughts.

Jess said...

Oh Jen, I am so so so sorry. I had to read your post several times to process it - I just can't believe it. Praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

my heart is breaking for you. sending as much love and strength your way as i can

SherilinR said...

holy shit. the tears are burning my eyes. oh my gosh.

acid tongued vixen said...

I am so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts.

andasbackpack said...

I am so, so sorry. Words can't express.

Elsha said...

Oh Jen. I am heartbroken for you.

Unknown said...

Jen, I am so, very sorry for the loss of your sweet Evelyn. Although no words can truly bring you comfort in this extremely painful time, please know that my every thought is with you and your family. I'm sending many wishes of strength to little Ainsley - may she have a short and easy stay in the NICU and come home to you very, very soon.

Unknown said...

I am so so so so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Amy, queen of the world. said...

I don't know what to say. I am so very sorry. You, Evelyn, and Ainsley are in my prayers.

Angie said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Evelyn and saying prayers that your little Ainsley will be out of the NICU and with you soon, and for you and your family down this tough road.

If you haven't already, you or a nurse or family member might want to see if you can get someone from the "Now I lay me down to sleep" organization http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ to get professional pictures (completely free to you) for you guys. We lost our daughter to pre-eclampsia and HELLP about a year ago and really treasure the pictures we got done. Unfortunately, this is a road we have walked and so when/if you want some pointers for other resources and support, feel free to let me know (angiew901@msn.com).

Jyl said...

There are just no words. I am so, so sorry. You and your family will be in my prayers.

Steffy said...

I'm so sorry. Your family is in our prayers.

juliane2004 said...

Oh my gosh. That is the last thing I expected to read. I am so incredibly sorry Jen.

Abaigael said...

Praying for your family! I am so so sorry!

JenM said...

Jen I am so so sorry, and I can't imagine how you feel right now. Prayers for Ainsley that she continues to do well in the NICU, and for sweet baby Evelyn. Take care of yourself, and let me know if there is anything I can do.

Jessica said...

Praying for you and you sweet sweet family.

Angel said...

Oh no. Oh, no. I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying with everything I have for your family right now -- for Ainsley, that she keeps fighting and thriving, and of course for Evelyn. Of course.

This is truly heartbreaking. I can't imagine how you must feel. I am so, so sorry.

Andrea said...

I'm so, so sorry Jen. You, your angel, and your little fighter in the NICU and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

I second the note from Angie re: photos, etc.

There are no words...I'm so sorry.

Sara said...

Oh Jen, I am so sorry. You and your family are in our prayers.

bibc said...

Oh, Jen, no. I'm so sorry. We lost both of our girls and unreal is the best way to put it. Please know that you have ever so many of us sending love and peace and know that we will be here even during the realest of moments when this all settles in. Enjoy your Evelyn and all of the kisses and hugs and love. She will always be with you and her sisters. Always. In the beginning after we had to say goodbye it helped me to talk to them, sounds silly but I felt it kept them close. Sending comfort and prayers to all tonight. Xoxo Lis

Laura said...

I'm so sorry.

LitterOf2 said...

Oh, how I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything alright. I know words can't possibly begin to help. I don't even know what to say. :(

Allison (Ali) said...

I am so sorry to hear about your precious daughter.

There really are no words.

Praying for you and your family.

Jaclyn said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your baby girl. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

Leah said...

What?!?! How can that be? Oh Jen....there are no words. I am heart broken for you... Oh God.

mummydr said...

I'lm so sorry, I can't believe what I just read. My prayers are with you all.

KristiMaristi said...

Absolutely heart broken for you...

Klizb said...

There really are no words...I am so sorry for your loss, but at the same time sending a thankful welcome for Ainsley. I hope her stay in the NICU is short and uneventful. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.

Erin said...

I can't say I can even understand the pain you are going through but I am praying for you and your family.

Love,
Erin

http://buzzinwithbee.blogspot.com/2010/12/for-jen.html

Corie said...

I have no words. I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.

Kristin {Sea Cow Circus} said...

I keep re-reading your post hoping that the words will change ... so, so sorry for you and your family. Sending thoughts, hugs and prayers to you.

Anonymous said...

Stunned and so sad. Thinking about you and your family tonight as you welcome them both and say goodbye to one.

veevs said...

I am heartbroken. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Anonymous said...

I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I'll be thinking of your family.

Kristinmo said...

I am so so sorry. Keeping you, Mark, and all 3 of your girls in my thoughts.

Heather Rodriguez said...

Been there and just went through it with a friend. It is unreal and awful. I will be praying for you.

Cy said...

The words simply don't exist to tell you how very sorry I am. My heart is breaking for you, I will continue to pray for your sweet Ainsley.

Erica said...

So sorry for your loss. You chose such beautiful names. At times there is just so much about pregnancy/birth/motherhood that is unfair and beyond what we think we can bear. I know that firsthand :(I'm praying for you and Ainsley.

Rotten said...

I cannot imagine what you are going through. I am so very sorry for this tragic loss. You are in my thoughts.

Carol said...

I had to read that over and over because I just can't believe it. And, I guess it means what I think it means seeing other people's comments. I am so sad for you and your family. I will will pray for you and little Ainsley to get well soon and get home to little Olivia. I know your heart must be breaking.

TheThirtiesGirl said...

I'm so, so sorry. Thinking of you, your babies, and your family.

Jen said...

No. Dammit, I'm so sorry to hear this. Keep her with you for as long as you can, you will never regret a second, and get pictures, NILMDTS is an excellent resource. We never want another one on our side, I'm so so sorry.

Michele said...

Oh no, that is tragic. HUGE hugs to you and precious Evelyn and Ainsley. My heart is breaking for you.

Jamie @ Bungalow Bee said...

I'm heartbroken for you and can't imagine what you're going through. Hugs & lots of prayers your way. Can't imagine, Jen. I'm so incredibly sorry.

Stefanie Blakely said...

I read your post 5 times, just trying to comprehend your devestating news. Jen, I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you all.

Rosie said...

Thinking of you and your family. So sorry for your loss. I'll be praying for your beautiful girls. Stay strong:)

Anonymous said...

Wow, even in the most heartbreaking of times you add a little humor into your words. You are amazing. And precious Evelyn is there, she is...with her sister tiny Ainsley - giving her all the strength and love she hogged in the uterus of doom. Wrapping her chubby arms around her to keep her warm and safe. Only now she has angel wings and dust to add to the power she is able to bestow. May God be with you all. Love and hugs from a stranger who adores you...

Losh said...

Shocked to read this Jen.

So very sorry for the tragic loss of Evelyn and hoping very much that Ainsley comes home with you soon.

Your family is in my thoughts.

BB said...

I am so sorry Jen... there is a chill going through my spine! You all are in my prayers!

Anonymous said...

Oh no. No no no no no.... I don't know what to say. Like other commenters I keep rereading your words, hoping they will change. I am so so sorry. My heart is breaking for you guys. Sending buckets of thoughts and prayers and love your way, shedding tears for your sweet Evelyn...

bella leanne said...

So incredibly sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I wish desperately that the love you receive here could ease your pain.

Steph said...

I'm so so so sorry, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I just can't believe it.

As Christine said, lots of love from another stranger who adores you...

Sushigirl said...

Oh no. So sorry for your loss, but also congratulations on Ainsley. Hope she gets big and strong.

katherine said...

Oh, Jen, words are too little, but tears are streaming down my cheeks. I am so so so very sorry.

I hope you can get a photographer while your gorgeous little Evelyn is still with you.
There is a wonderful free volunteer service of professional photographers doing precisely this type of thing. You can find it at http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/
Please have someone look into it for you.

And for the (very very tough) days and months and years to come, please consider visiting
glowinthewoods.com -- a website written by and for parents of babies who die before or shortly after birth. It's a terrible circle to belong to, but its been a lifeline for many (it helps both with immediate concerns -- such as funeral arrangements -- and with emotional support for the rocky road ahead...) And there are quite a few parents of twins on there...

So so very sorry, Jen. Many hugs to your whole family, and especially to you, mama...

naturalmel said...

You and your family are in my prayers Jen. I am so sorry for your loss.

katherine said...

Second comment -- I was in such shock, I forgot the obvious: Congratulations mama, and welcome, little Ainsley. I am so sorry grief and joy have to be intertwined this way. May the joy overshadow the grief...

Anonymous said...

Oh, Jen. Not what I thought I'd read at all. A warm welcome to Ainsley; I'm so, sorry for your loss of Evelyn.

Ann said...

I rarely, if ever, comment but I wanted to say that I'm so sorry for your loss but, at the same time, I'm happy for you that Ainsley is holding her own. While I'm a stranger to you, you and your family are in my thoughts.

Ruby @ Focus, Woman! said...

Oh no no... I'm so sorry for your loss. And that doesn't even come close to what i'd like to say, but I know no words can make this okay. Sending strength & love your way...

Katie said...

Oh, your girls. Shocked and saddened to hear about Evelyn.
Happy to hear that Ainsley is holding her own -- go Ainsley go!
Your family is in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I'm so so sorry.

Maddy said...

Jen, I'm terribly saddened by your news of the loss of Evelyn. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Best of luck to Ainsley. It sounds like she's doing well. Congratulations on being a momma for a second time.

Lyndz said...

I'm so sorry Jen. My thoughts are with you and your family.

'Murgdan' said...

I am so so sorry, Jen.

Alison said...

Long-time lurker, first-time commenter. I am so sorry for your loss and thinking about your family today.

Kansas said...

I'm just heartbroken for you, Jen. I'm saying a prayer for you and sweet little Ainsley. Sending lots of love and hugs your way.

Genieh229 said...

There are no words. Many more than you will ever know are thinking of you right now.

Buford Betty said...

Lifting up some big prayers for you. I am so very sorry... how terribly sad and unfair. Praying for peace for your family.

middleagedrunner said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. Sending prayers and healing thoughts to you and your family. I have been following your journey and my heart just aches for you....

Macchiatto said...

I am in shock and just heartbroken for you guys; what a devastating loss.

And at the same time, congratulations on your little Ainsley. I will pray that she continues to grow and thrive.

You may be familiar with this, but for future reference if you need it, there's an organization called the Center for Loss in Multiple Birth (CLIMB) that might be a good resource as you walk through the complicated process of grieving one baby while going through NICU time and life with a newborn with her sister.

Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

twinkietotmom said...

There are no words any of us can say to even come close to making you think we know what you are going through or make you feel better. Like Jess above said, I had to read it over a couple times to comprehend what was being said. I'm in shock and total grieving for you & your family. My prayers are with you and little baby Ainsley to stay strong for Momma, Daddy, and her sisters!

katherine said...

I keep on coming back, hoping I'm just imagining things. I just cannot wrap my head around it.
I hope you can be kind to yourself, Jen. It sounds like your little Evelyn left you before she was born, and this, I think, makes it especially hard on a mama, and especially easy to start pointing fingers towards others, too. Be kind to yourself, mama....

Rachel W. said...

Oh Jen....oh no. So sorry. Thoughts and prayers abound for you all.

Johanna said...

I'm so sorry. Praying for Ainsley.

andrea said...

there are no words, just hugs and tears and hope.
love you guys

Andrea said...

I'm so sorry this happened to you. I feel sick to my stomach. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Soapchick said...

I am so sorry for the loss of Evelyn and praying for Ainsley and for strength for you and your husband.

Anna Marie said...

Oh no no no no. I am in shock - this is the saddest news and my thoughts are with you and your family.

sassyshell said...

I am so, so sorry to hear about Evelyn. Know that many thoughts and prayers are being sent your way.

Congratulations on Ainsley, may she grow strong and healthy in the NICU quickly.

Stace said...

I am so incredibly sorry for you and your family. You've experienced the worst. As a mother who lost a twin as well, I can tell you that, while it never gets better or easier, the pain does change and become more manageable. I'll be praying for Ainsley to get bigger and better soon.

seussgirl said...

My heart is broken for you. Praying, and crying, and thinking of you. I am so so sorry.

Lisa said...

Lurker here- I clicked on your blog from my Google reader i was so excited and not expecting to see this! Im so sorry, I will be thinking of your sweet baby girl who was taken from you too soon. Not Fair!! As for Ainsley, you go girl!

rebecca said...

Jen I'm so incredibly sorry. Praying and hoping that Ainsley remains stable. Hoping you feel the love of so many surrounding you and praying you find the strength you need in the coming days. You are not alone, we suffered the loss of our daughter six months ago and it is a grief that sadly I have come to find I am not alone in. I hope you guys are surrounded with kindness and compassion as you navigate the loss of Eveyln.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. Sending you thoughts and prayers.

ks said...

I'm so sorry Jen. I read this 5 times before it clicked what I was reading... I'm just so heart sick for you and your family right now. Your little girls are in our thoughts and prayers. I'm so very sorry!

We will light a candle tonight for Evelyn.

Yours truly,
JD & KS

Inara Jones said...

My prayers are with you and your family today. Congratulations on your beautiful girls, and I am so sorry. How wonderful and awful at the same time. I wish I knew what to say. I just wanted to let you know that another stranger is praying for you.

Allison said...

My heart is breaking. I'm so sorry for your loss, Jen and Mark; my prayers are with your family. Welcome, little Ainsley, grow strong.

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Thinking of you all and sending wishes for strength and healing for all of you.

Beth Anne said...

oh, Jen. My heart feels broken for you.

Lifting you & the girls up in prayer.

Sarah said...

Jen I am so sorry for your loss.

I am saying prayers for you and your husband and Ainsley.

Evelyn will be missed dearly!!!

Natalie Watt said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and all your sweet girls.

Jill and Rich said...

Sending all our prayers to you today.
This is unimaginable.

Elizabeth Flora Ross said...

Jen, I don't even know you, but my heart is breaking for you right now. I found you through Felicia Lewis. God Bless both your beautiful little girls, and I hope your new family can learn to celebrate the brief time you had with your little angel. She will always be with you in your heart.

I am so terribly sorry for your loss.

mandie lane said...

I am so tremendously sorry for your loss.

V said...

I am so so sorry... Words can't describe my feelings.
Hugs and love to your family.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry Jen. I am praying for you and your family.

pyjammy pam said...

I couldn't sleep without thinking of your family. I am devastated for you. I know Ainsley is a fighter, she will do great. I am sorry for the loss of your sweet Evelyn.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. So very sorry.

Sara said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for sweet Evelyn and your whole family.

Kirsty said...

Oh my god...I have no words. I am just so very, very sorry.

JP said...

Beautiful names. I am so sorry for the loss of Evelyn. May Ainsley thrive and be home soon. No more words come to mind, just terribly bittersweet feelings for your family right now.

Candice said...

Welcome to the world, Ainsley!! Seems you've been a fighter all along. Keep fighting.

I'm so sorry to hear about Evelyn. I don't even know what to say.

*sigh*

I will pray for you all.

Nisha said...

Congratulations on the birth of your precious babies and I'm so sorry for the loss of Evelyn. I can only imagine your pain right now as you deal with such immense grief for Evelyn while trying to stay strong for your two other daughters.

Stephanie said...

I am so sorry for you & your family.

When Two Becomes Five said...

So very sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

krlr said...

I am heartbroken for you. Please accept my condolences. I am...just so sorry. Words are terribly inadequate.

jlynn said...

Thinking fo you and keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Kendra said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers for you, your family, and your precious girls.

HereWeGoAJen said...

Oh, Jen, I am so sorry. I will be thinking about all of you and sending love.

AJ said...

My heart breaks for you, Jen. You, your sweet girls, and your family will continue to be in my prayers.

Melissa said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss and praying that your sweet little fighter grows stronger each day.

B2B said...

My heart is breaking right now! You & your family are in my thoughts during this difficult time. I will be praying for Ainsley so that she will continue to be be strong.

Kate said...

I am so truly sorry. There are no words for what you and your family are going through.

In regards to Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep, they are a wonderful organization. They sent a photographer out at 1:30 in the morning to Children's Hospital of Philadelphia when my son Max died.

Miranda said...

There are very few appropriate words to convey the emotions I'm feeling upon reading your story this morning after following a link Blair posted on Twitter. My heart is lifted up at the life of sweet Ainsley, but is burdened by your loss. May Evelyn's memory be eternal. I'm praying for your family.

Chrys and Mike said...

Oh, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you right now. There are no words.

Ashley said...

I am in shock. Jen, I know that there are no words that will comfort you during this time, but I just wanted to let you know I am praying for your family and sweet baby Ainsley. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Jeannett said...

Sorry rings hollow, I'm sure.

But I am. I found your blog through a tweet from Heir to Blair.

Sorry.

God is still good. Even when it doesn't feel like it. Keep your chin up for your babies. Kiss sweet toes and wrinkly fingers. Because that's what mamas do. We take a deep breath and keep on keeping on. Even when getting out of bed seems monumental.

Love and hugs from a stranger.

Unknown said...

Thinking of you and your family...so incredibly sorry.

Clair said...

Jen,
I don't know what to say to you other than I am so sorry for your loss.
Praying that baby Ainsley continues to do well.
Love to you and your family
Clair

Anonymous said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss. So very sorry. You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers today and tomorrow and for the next coming weeks. I know the hurt from the loss of Evelyn will never heal, but I hope within time, you find peace. Until then, my heart is with you.

Unknown said...

oh God. So sorry for your loss...

Patty said...

I've been following your journey for some time, and am truly heartbroken for you. I'm so very sorry you have to experience such loss. My prayers are with your family.

laurieb145 said...

I am totally speechless, I have no idea what to say. I am so sorry for your devastating loss. Welcome to the world Ainsley...
My goodness, I am praying for your family. SO sorry Jen and Mark and sweet big Sister Olivia.

KIT said...

I am heartbroken for you. So very sorry for you loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

mom2anangel said...

Jen, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of Evelyn - the loss of a baby is so heartbreaking, I'm sorry you had to join this "club". Many people have already made some good suggestions for you, I know it's hard to deal with all this stuff right now but hopefully you will be able to get some pictures of little Evelyn. I will pray for Ainsley and pray that she continues to thrive and has a short stay in the NICU and can join you and Mark and Olivia at home soon. You are all in my prayers.

KristyMC said...

Oh my God. I am so, so sorry this happened. I have no words, but please know that my heart is breaking for you.
It seems almost wrong to say this, but congratulations on the birth of your daughters. Ainsley and Evelyn are beautiful names. I am very glad that Ainsley is doing well. I bet she's going to be a little fire cracker.
Again, I am so sorry. I will be thinking about all of you.

Erin said...

I am so so very sorry. This is devastating. You and your family is in my thoughts.

Stephanie said...

I'm so, so sorry. This is just not fair. I will be thinking of you and thinking good thoughts that Ainsley thrives and gets bigger and healthier.

Christa said...

Jen I'm so extremely sorry for your loss. I'll keep my fingers crossed for Ainsley.

Rachael said...

My thoughts are with you. This is devastating and I'm so sorry.

Heather said...

Don't know what to say. I had to stop and come back to leave this comment. Broken heart for you. I am so very sorry for your loss and praying ever harder for Ainsley's health so she can be with her family at home.

Cassie said...

I don't know what to say, except that I am so incredibly sorry. I'm praying for all of you.

Krystle said...

WHAT?! But, I just, I don't know what to say. Unreal is the only word, I suppose. I just don't understand how it can be. I'm so incredibly sorry.

Maggie said...

Oh no - I am so very sorry for this huge huge loss. Unreal and unfair is right.

Shell said...

Sending prayers for your family.

Emily said...

I am so sad and sorry to hear this news, Jen. Sending love and prayers to your family and your sweet girls.

Gwen Papp said...

Oh my god, no. I sit here reading it over and over, hoping I misunderstood what you meant. I just can't believe it. I am so sorry, there are no other words. So sorry.

Kara said...

I'm struggling to write this because having lost a baby of my own a couple years ago I know there is absolutely nothing I can say. But still wanted to say something.
Will be praying for you and your family, especially for baby Ainsley while she is in the NICU.

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry for your heartbreaking loss! I will be keeping you in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Unfathomable, incomprehensible. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Jessica said...

I am so so sorry for your loss, I know it is unfathomable. I lost a daughter too, 2 days after her birth. She was also a multiple. Whenever you are ready I am here for you if you need to talk, scream, cry, whatever. You and your family are in my thoughts through this awful time.

LisaB said...

I'm SO sorry for your loss. :*( *hugs*

Magenta said...

Ohmygosh. There are no words... Thinking of all of you in such a difficult time.

Anonymous said...

I am so, so sorry. Sending you much love.

Caskie said...

So sorry for your loss. Love and prayers coming your way.

Mom to two boys said...

Words cannot express. I am so, so sorry. Please know we are thinking of you.

Team Skinner said...

I am so heartbroken for you and your family. I just can't imagine what you are going through. All of you are in my prayers.

Emily said...

What beautiful names.

I'm so very sorry.

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Jeff and Kerry said...

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to spend as much time with Evelyn as you would like, and I'll continue to pray for Ainsley's health and time in the NICU.

Alisa D said...

What you are going through is beyond my comprehension. I will pray for peace and comfort for you and your family. I will also pray for strength and health for baby Ainsley. I cannot find words to tell you how sorry I am for your loss...

Lori said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

At the same time, I want to say Congrats on the birth of sweet baby Ainsley.

As is the byline on Angie Smith's book, truly this is such a "Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy."

Anonymous said...

I know there are no words that could ever help. I am beyond sorry.

TwoDogMama said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm praying for your family and for Ainsley to continue to fight and grow.

Laurel said...

Oh, Jen. No-- no-- no. I couldn't believe what I was reading. I am so very, very sorry for you and your family's loss. My heart is with you.

Sending warm thoughts and welcomes to Ainsley.

Stephanie said...

Jen, your family is in my thoughts. I wish you strength during this tough time.

Katrina said...

I am so sorry for the lose of your sweet Evelyn.

I hope Ainsley's stay at the Children's Hospital is short and sweet so she can get home to big sister Olivia soon.

My heart is with you and yours.

Mariesa said...

I'm so so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you and your family are feeling right now. I believe having Ainsley in your life brings joy; I also can't imagine the mixed emotions. All of you will be in my thoughts.

Courtney said...

Jen, I am so sorry for your loss of Evelyn. I will be keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers in the days and weeks to come. Welcome to little Ainsley - I hope she continues to thrive and gain strength from her special guardian angel, Evelyn.

Another commenter mentioned this but it's worth saying again - please be kind and good to yourself during this time. You did everything you possibly could to get your girls here safely. You did great - and that's proven by Ainsley holding her own right now. You're a great mama!

Hang in there.

Sara B said...

Jen, I'm so sorry. I can't believe it. I will be praying for all of you. I wish I had something wonderful and insightful to say, but all I can say is that I am so so sorry for your tremendous loss.

Anonymous said...

Oh Jen...there are no words. I am so so so sorry.

Others have mentioned it, but I would recommend reaching out to Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep. Or at least have some photos taken. That is one of my biggest regrets.

Most of all, however, please know that there are many, many people out here thinking of you.


Heartfelt hugs, my friend. xoxo

Emily B. said...

I am so very very sorry for your loss. May God bring comfort to you and your family in such a difficult time. As you mourn the loss of one and celebrate the life of another, know that you have more people then you know praying for all of you.

May God bring strength to all of you and especially little Ainsley. She does have her own special guardian angle watching over her.

May God bless all of you.

Melissa said...

Jen, I am so sorry. I have been reading your blog for quite some time and cheering on you, Olivia, and your pregnancy. I am so sorry to read about Evelyn. Your family and Ainsley will be in my prayers. There are a TON of people pulling for little Ainsley right now :)

Lisa said...

Oh, Jen...I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you and your family are going through right now.
You're in my thoughts and prayers.

E said...

I know there is nothing I can say that hasn't already been said; however, after sharing so many details of your life with complete strangers, i do hope it is some comfort that all around you, people you don't even know are wishing you the best, and hoping your heart heals soon. Your girls' names are beautiful.

areyoukiddingme said...

Congratulations on the birth of your girls...and I'm so sorry for the loss of your Evelyn. I wish I had something comforting to say. You're all in my prayers.

I hope Ainsley continues to do well, and is soon home with you.

Kristi said...

So many thoughts and prayers are with you. There are no words to say, just know there are so many people out there praying for you all and hugging you in our thoughts and prayers.

Melissa G said...

Tragic feels like a gross understatement... I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.

Dre said...

Oh Jen. I have no words. Sorry doesn't cut it. Sending love for you as you snuggle your Evelyn. And prayers that you guys will be snuggling Ainsley at home soon.

Annegirrl said...

I am just so sorry, Jen. I'm keeping your entire family in my heart and thoughts.

Amy said...

OMG I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of Evelyn. I could hardly believe what I was reading...sending lots of love and hugs your way.

s said...

**hugs**

Meg said...

I have no words. Just wanted to let you know we are ALL only thinking the best for you and your family right now.

Dawn Allen said...

Sending lots and lots of Hugs, Thoughts, & Prayers your way!!! I can't even begin to imagine how hard this is. So sorry for your loss.

Mary said...

Congratulations and I'm so terribly sorry. It seems beyond unfair that anyone, especially a family who has gone through so much to have children should suffer this kind of loss. I hope it is some comfort to know that there are hundreds if not thousands of us out here in blog-o-land thinking of you and praying for your family.

Erin said...

I know no words can comfort your loss . . but know that there are lost of prayers and thoughts of comfort being sent your way. You'll never ever forget your sweet Evelyn, but Ainsley will help make sure you keep smiling :)

HandbagsbyJen said...

There are no words. You are in my prayers.

jkmcgoo said...

I am so very sorry. So very sorry.

~Hollie said...

Sorry doesnt cut it, but I am truly aching at this news. I pray for your strength and courage.

Marie-Claude said...

I'm so sorry. You and your family are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry.

Once Upon A Time said...

I am heartbroken for you and your family. I will be thinking of you in this time of great loss and sending lots of prayers to help Ainsley grow big and strong.

The strength of the blogging community will be behind you as you face this incredibly difficult time.

Amy, queen of the world. said...

Hope it doesn't sound too insane that I stayed up last night crying my eyes out and praying over all of you when I don't know you at all. Your girls share a birthday with my boy. I can't wait to hear more about them. Both of them. Still sending you prayers, love, and peaceful thoughts.

Wendi said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful family.

PreshusMe said...

Oh no! I'm so very sad to hear this news! My heart and thoughts are with you and your family.

Sully said...

I am so sorry to read this. You and your family are in my prayers.

alicia said...

Thoughts of you and your family at this horrible time.

Wendy said...

absolutely no words can describe this pain. I am so deeply sorry. My thoughts are with you, your husband and daughters.

Zakary said...

Much love to you and your family. I am so very sorry, it just isn't fair.

JennyM said...

My heart aches for you and what you are going through. There can be no greater pain than losing a child. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Laura said...

I am a long time lurker. I have no words to express how sorry I am. I wish we could ease your pain. Keeping you in my thoughts. I am so very very sorry.

stephanie said...

I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your sweet Evelyn. I pray that Ainsley grows strong and comes home to you very, very soon. Much love to you during this incomprehensible time.

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